Reading Blogs…
Comedy/tragedy
I think that really reading others blogs is in no way a waste of time. I’m not sure how many really do read them. If you look for blogs you can relate to or that are interesting to you there is so much you can learn. Not just about other people but about yourself and how that there really are others going through or have gone through things similar to you.
I like to read the personal ones. But I’ve started reading the bipolar blogs, or blogs by people who are Bipolar. I have been moved by people trying and actually doing a better job than me, describing some of the complicated things that go with it. It isn’t easy for anyone who isn’t bipolar to understand.
I think that and other diagnoses have been over used and also confused with other mental illnesses. Me for an example, I never was diagnosed with it until I was in my early thirties and I had a mental nervous breakdown and ended up in the mental hospital for a week or two taking tests and being analyzed. By then, I had developed a nervous disorder along with it.
I hate having to try to explain what is wrong with me. Lately im coping better. I’m able to get out in public a little more and keep a routine better (now that the kids are grown). Also, last July my Doctor put me on Adipex because I was not eating healthy and plus my meds were causing weight gain. Then lo and behold, I wasn’t nearly as depressed. There was a marked difference. I had a lot more energy and drive minus the chaotic mania. He wants to keep me on it indefinitely.
I have went through so many different regiments over the last decade. I have been on just about everything. But like a blog that I read about someone was having to change doctors and afraid the new doctor would change the meds his Doctor had him on for years, I have feared that. I have had the same therapist for nine years and she knows me inside and out. I couldn’t imagine having to start all over again with someone else. I would be terrified to change my meds even though I am on quite a few. Because when it comes to mental illness, it takes time and frustration to put together the right combination of drugs that works for you. I’ve been doing better and better and I would hit the ceiling if anyone tried to change anything.
It was moving to see others having the same fears. Also the people describing the process of going through a “panic attack”. It’s an unbelievable frightening experience.
I don’t want to blog about the same stuff everyday. I have a million different things going through my mind all the time lol. But there will be times I will try to share things about it when its an issue.
A journey with many faces
